My blood counts went up, according to my oncologist visit Monday. That's good. I am still a bit anemic but the iron pills upset my stomach so I am trying to obtain my iron from spinach and kale and I reckon a good steak would help also. Although I decided a few weeks back to stop eating red meat. The anemia probably contributes to my fatigue also.
I got approved for Medicaid which means my next round of chemo (Round #3 ~ 1/4 of the way done!!) can be done in the doctor office and not in hospital. I still dread it but it is not the hospital. I hate the fucking hospital. Tomorrow morning at 9am, they will access my port for a 3 hour infusion of Avastin. Then I get to come home with a pack full of drugs hooked up to my port, a big IV, to finish the 48 hour infusion of the other drugs. I will be in my own house, with my own stuff and no stupid strangers waking me up at 8:30AM wanting to change my sheets. That annoyed the crap out of me.
I am feeling a bit discouraged, it's been very hard. I cry. I am angry. Depressed. Just when I feel like I am recovering from the chemo, I get nailed with another round. I wonder how I am going to manage 5 more months of this.
Dan is really good at snapping me out of it, reminding me to just breathe and stay in the moment. I will get through it because it is the way forward. He helps me a lot. Thanks, Dan. I could not do this without you. And your yummy juices also, they are made with love and lots of fresh veggies. Love ya.
